tired...

tell tell tell...
also never change...
maybe i'm a thinking very kolot ppl...
but i really hope... wish... all the things...
never change....
remains...
but....
impossible....
why.....
the God want treat me bad.......
all the ppl like memperalatkan me...
i treat u all by heart.....
but u.....
disappointed....
i always tell myself:
appreciate all the ppl..
of course include family...
and friends too...
but u....?
how...?
never........
u never.....
maybe have....
before lo....
then now.....
you have new friends.........
i always think that....
why a ppl can change so fast.....?
many years friendship cant compare with one year....
no...
havent one year..
really upset.....
who really really care me.......
no...
only family...
i also know why i will like that....
is it i'm lesbian....?
no....
i can tell u that i'm not lesbian....
coz i know i love him.....
i just think that i want a close and close and close friend...
that is you.....
but...
is it ur close close close friend is me.....???
i know.... is no....
can i dont think again.....?
why human need have feel.....?
can human be very cool...?
no heart??
cruel....?
feel make me suffer.......

long time no write something in here lo.....
everytime unhappy but dunno should share with who so write in here.....
just now u call me ask got go to school.....?
but no...
today i stay at home....
haiz....
why i dont go leh...
aiyo....
everytime u call me but i at home....
this is the second times....
haiz.....
hope next time we really can meet each other lah....!!
haha...

yesterday i scold ppl oh...
of course i pretend de lah!!
my frens said i very funny wo....
haiz...
but also got somebody said well done!!
my job need very strict!
if not they all will do wrong...!!
then the new juniors come how the seniors teach?!
we need to change it faster before the new members join!
but dunno they had get our msg or not???
they just only know how to write it down!
they just only concentrate when the leader give work!
but when work....
play play!!
irresponsible!!
pls serious ok.....?
although this all are not ur things!
but ur work u need to complete well!!
haiz...
hope i wont scold them next time...

i back from far place... then join you all... but...
u always together with her..
i tell myself...
dont so selfish!
u also have ur own friends!
ok...
better....
but take that photo.....
u and her take the biggest...
i know just 2 bigger..
but u never ask me i wan or not.....
then u take it.....
maybe u know i sad.......
so try to talk with me....
i dunno what i want....
confuse....
dizzy.........
i try to forget all the bad thing.......
try to remember the good memory.......
try...
just try..
also same.........
i really dunno what i want..........................
i should apprecciate...
i shouldnt want too many thing....
i should think ur feel...
but....
who care me...?
who think about me..?
God...................