tired...

although holiday.... but i equal to no holiday cause have activity in school on this friday and saturday...
my friends all not free in this holiday too.. so this time cant hanging out....
haiz.....
wanna relax with them..
join together also hard.......
we had chated in MSN...
suddenly i felt that you more friendly to me...
you become more care about me.....
very happy.... really.....
tuesday i back from school early... but after i back home you go to school... aiya....
very funny ya... we stil cant meet...
haiz....
you ask me have i go to school....?
i think that you wanna know me...
think you care me.....
haha....
but recently wanna chat with you in MSN but cant meet..
then sms to you....
suddenly worry you will think me very annoy...
but when read your reply msg...
oh.. i think too much lah!
you are not that kind of ppl...
hope we can continue like this.....
appreciate....

"u said u pretend do not see, but u have to...
u said u pretend do not see, but is ur limited...
u said u pretend do not see do not ask, so u are irresponsible...
do u know?? but... u no need to know..."
what u mean...? do u mean me...?
is me make u crazy...
is me make us far...
is me make our relationship bond break...
i dont know whose wrong...
is u...?
or me...?
or both of us...?
or nobody...?
who know...
who can tell me how should i do...
am i say out are a very very wrong action...?
my heart so...
confuse...
wanna cry...
but nobody help...
can i repair it....?
i hope...
really hope...
do u think i so free so everytime i mad with u...
do u think i like make us this...?
nobody dont like...
i dont like that feel...
no good...
bad.....

today exam... but i do not care about it...
after exam i go and find her... i dont know she has see me or not, i think have... but she pretend do not see me... it means... she angry... maybe jemu about me... after she see me... but nothing say...
i also nothing say...
but i can feel that she dont like me anymore...
begin hate...
heart broke...
why...
i dont know how should i do to repair out relationship...
dont know.....

i dont know what can i do and what should i do.....
i think i very selfish... always want u company me...only...
and play with me only too...
but... why i cant open my heart think about ur mind...?
oh bloo bloo! dont so stubborn again!!!!
wake up!
but.... who think of me...?
pls...
dont forget me again, ok?
i just wanna ur care...
and pls be truthly when face to me...
love...

today i don't know i do right or wrong.... today u,g,t,ls sit in hall together... but me... sit at behind... but you all never turn back look at me... you all like forget me edi... i really upset... but i think: never mind! you just wanna read book...
when step out the hall, i see you all stand there.. i very happy, cause u all wait for me... but actually not.... u all wait for ls...ok! also never mind! not a big deal...
when u want take bag in library, ok, i wait! but when u all take the bag then straight away go back to class... and never ask where am i... i really really angry... i purpose walk another way and make a angry angry face and walk fast fast... i think u will know i am angry! very angry! but no... dissapointed... u don't know... don't know i angry... don't know i upset right now... who will know my feels... no... nobody...
maybe God knows...
and i can feel that u scare at me now... i can feel that... then i ask you... but u means no.. everytime i wanna tell u about my feel... my thinking... but u always write homework... busy... u always said: u say lah! i'm hearing... i don't wnt u write and i talk... i dont like...!can u pls treat me some more good...?
i really tired... tired... but i dont want cause this then lose our friendship... no.....